RUNNING AWAY TO ANYWHERE!
HAVE YOU EVER WANTED TO RUN AWAY SO FAR AND SO FAST THAT YOU DIDN'T CARE WHERE YOU ENDED UP?
I'VE KINDA FELT THAT WAY RECENTLY. NOT A HOPELESS FLEE-- JUST A COMPLETE CHANGE OF PLACE, SELF, SURROUNDINGS TYPE FLEE.
A REBIRTH? OR IS IT A DEATH: DEATH, TO THE OLD SELF, PAST, , PRESENT, CURRENT, BOTH MENTALLY AND SPIRITUALLY?...WHAT'S THE DIFFERENCE? AND NO--I'M NOT EVEN REMOTELY TALKING ABOUT PHYSICAL SUICIDE.
I THINK VISITS TO THE CARDIOLOGIST MAKE YOU THINK WEIRD CHIT--EVEN WHEN YOU GET AN OK REPORT- THERE IS ALWAYS THE THOUGHT THAT I COULD'VE DIED IN 2005! I CAME VERY CLOSE. SO I GUESS THIS IS JUST ONE OF THOSE CONTEMPLATIVE MOMENTS.
WHAT DO YOU CONTEMPLATE DAILY?
ARE YOU A GLASS 1/2 FULL, 1/2 EMPTY--OR IS IT JUST THE WRONG SIZED GLASS?
PERSPECTIVE...YEAH- THAT'S WHAT IT IS.........
PUT IT ALL IN PERSPECTIVE!
AND WHEN YOU DO: - IT MAKES YOU WANT TO RUN AS FAR AND AS FAST AS YOU CAN TO NO MATTER WHERE YOU END UP!
WHAT VIEW DOES HE SEE?
EXACT SAME OBJECT---WHCH VIEW ? AND DOES IT MATTER?
I CHOSE THIS VIEW OF LIFE!
FISHING AT SUNSET WITH A FRIEND. AND I RAN ALL THE WAY HERE AS FAST AS I COULD !
DOES THAT MAKE ANY SENSE? TO ANYONE?
LOVE YOU ALL.
Makes a lot of sense. But I got that out of my system from 21-25 when I walked ran or thumbed everywhere I wanted to be which was nowhere and somewhere else than I was. Now for the last 30+ years I really have not had but a fleeting desire to leave Detroit.
ReplyDeleteRoad Trip John, Road Trip.
by the by how's that house looking for thing coming along?
For as long as I've been driving, when I get on an open highway, I have the urge to just keep driving. But it's not my life I want to leave behind but all my flaws and faults which unfortunately ride right along with you. I've also had the feeling, never when I was actually away, but always while sitting in my house - even as a child - the feeling that I'm homesick. I've even said the words out loud - I want to go home now. Like I'm not where I should be.
ReplyDeleteI contemplate my own mortality more than I should, probably. Both of my parents died when I was very young so I'm well aware that there are no guarantees in life. I don't fear death itself, it's just that process of dying that I'm not real excited about...ya know?
ReplyDeleteIt makes perfect sense John. You expressed it so well.
ReplyDeleteI think these times of perspective are good for the soul. And I love your photo of fishing at sunset.
Keep keeping it real!
Mark- I think that's what I'm leading back up too---another trip to FL, for a repeat and reconnect of friends, Fishing, drinking Vino-on the Dock and good food! I don't call that running away so much as running back too life!
ReplyDeleteThanks for your perspective Bro,
BBB!
House hunting is slow--Too high a price for a piece of crap--or not enough Crap for the price. It's a weird market--plus some things should fall into place in August!
J
Jeannie--Maybe Belize is the New Home...but I know what you mean. I think a lot of us are Nomads at heart!
J
Kelly- 100% agree. I'm comfortable going or staying--but I've seen s much suffering in the last months, weeks, days--I wonder sometimes how it will be. Again--the end product I don't worry about!
Thanks!
J
PAMO--You are so SWEET! Thanks for such a kind and spot on comment!
J