Saturday, July 3, 2010

WHO AM I KIDDING????


I started not to Post until Monday- and then I remembered WHO I was; My Life; and admitted- WHO AM I KIDDING! So, here is a read!

Hi all….,
 May this be a Happy, Safe and Wonderful 4th of July. May we always remember our Troops and their Families now and forevermore, for their past, present and future Service, that has afforded us these magnificent Freedoms!

I truly Love our growing family, and will get back regularly to all of the Blogs in my side bar. This has been a recent explosion for me in QUALITY New Friends that I think you too would like, and enjoying reading and getting to know. Thanks to everyone- and if you are not on the list!! Leave a comment or e-mail me and I’ll fix that!!!
 I went to see my baby Sister in Wilkesboro, NC just N. of Boone- (Appalachian State’s home)- and all the Ski resorts!  ICE SKIING!!!  Ski -----NC Ice—you can ski anywhere!
 It was so quiet it was palpable. The coolness compared to our record tying June—tied for hottest on record since 1898 when records were kept,
 With an average 88.3!!! This happened once before in 1950!  So is that global warming???? Our normal is around 80-82 for June!  We had 5 days in the 100’s, 20 days in the 90’s and 5 days in the 80’s!

I reconnected with Nature, Mother Earth and my Sister in one fell swoop! What an awesome and VERY IMPORTANT Trip. I’m so proud I totally knew it would be this way made ME go. It would have been so easy to say—well… After the 4th…..or, in the next two weeks—or, well, let’s let the summer get by…… then OMG, it’s been 5 years! “Where the hell did they go?” to quote Pat Tillett, in a recent comment. They SNEAK by us!

Seeing my sister was awesome, even though we talk regularly and e-mail almost daily—(just silly forwards mostly). But still we talk. In no way does this compensate for SEEING her, and watching as she beamed with pride, her eyes dancing just like my Mom’s as we toured the property. OMG_SHE WAS MY MOM!  That was so awesome seeing my Mother for the first time in my Sister. It was almost eerie- then I realized how comforting it was. I can see Mom- in my sister even after she’s gone. I just lost my Aunt to Cancer this past week. We did not know each other very well, but her Husband—My Uncle Bob—my Mother’s slightly older brother was very close when I was growing up. Another 25 years and I saw him once!!!! I knew NOTHING of his struggles until I found out about a week before how bad off she was! My Aunt was terminal and I never even sent a card until after her death!
Icing on the cake soon followed.  My Niece and favorite whom it FELT like we helped raise, only because she was the absolute coolest kid I have ever known. Not having children, we grabbed every opportunity to see and keep her, and spend time with her.  She went to Vacation Bible School here in summers, accepted Christ and was baptized in My Wife’s and Mine’s Church!  My sister and Dana’s dad were great parents and let us keep her most summers growing up!
I didn’t see my 4 to 15 year old little girl: I had missed a Major and formative CHUNK of her life and had no idea what it was like. I only pray she will fill me in! We have an awesome rapport, not to mention the fact that we get along really well!

What I saw was a 22 year old young woman-. Damn—how had I missed so much!

Again, I’d like to welcome all new Followers, and I am getting to all of your Blogs! I noticed that time is slipping by. I checked my notebook/journal and the last entry was May 31st. I usually journal religiously and do my devotions-, at the same time.  Personal Worship and Devotion time with Jesus in a non-commercial type private session- my bedroom.  No I’m not special!!! He IS!

I must have been in one Major Funk to go that long without journaling. I’ve also found that if you are doing it just for the sake of not missing a day you are doing it for the wrong reasons. This break was desperately needed and helped put new Vision and Perspective on a lot of things! No desperate measures need to be taken, and the current path and direction feel very solid and Purposeful! I’m finding some passion and a better vision again.

If anything, this has been a great confirmation that I’m on the right track. I truly enjoy living each day, (and if possible, moment), as this brings an uncertainty and excitement that I have not had in about ONE year to the week, my last day at Urgent Care.  I didn’t know what being mandatorily medically “RETIRED” would do to me!!! I have made certain adjustments and am again starting to move FULL-ON FORWARD!

It feels GREAT to write that out, and be honest about it. I know challenges are just around the corner. But I look forward to the Journey again! As Miley Cyrus sang, “Life’s a Climb…but the view is worth it”!
This was just posted by someone- and I wish I could remember who—SoccerMom—GreenEyed Momster???? Anyway—it was a great post! Thanks for that reference, and I had just seen the movie days before!

FINALLY—of all things to come on TV today:  THE WIZARD of OZ!  Totally fitting as it had such an early impact on my life, and still impacts many lives! Fitting that I had just returned to my Kansas! Fitting we all have magical Ruby Slippers; called, phones, e-mail, letters, etc……… Go ahead—JUST CALL and go visit!—their ONLY FAMILY!!!!
JMc