Saturday, March 27, 2010

FEELING HUMAN AGAIN

 A BRIGHTER OUTLOOK- ESPECIALLY LOOKING UP!
CAROLINA BLUE SKY!


I'M SO SORRY I RUINED MY WIFE'S 40TH HIGH SCHOOL REUNION, BUT SHE WAS SO GRACIOUS ABOUT IT! AS IF SHE WOULD EVER BE ANYTHING ELSE! I WAS TRULY TOUCHED WHEN I SAW HOW MANY OF HER CLASSMATES, THAT WERE ALREADY DOWN THERE, SUPPORTED HER WITH WELL WISHES AND PRAYED FOR ME.

I KNOW WITHOUT A DOUBT- THAT IS WHY I'M FEELING SO MUCH BETTER SO FAST!

GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME;
ALL THE TIME, GOD IS GOOD.

THAT IS SO HARD FOR ANYONE GOING THROUGH TRIALS, STRESSES, LOSS, TRAUMA, DEPRESSION, LONELINESS, ETC., TO BELIEVE. IT IS SOMETHING I'VE MULLED OVER MANY TIMES IN MY HEAD. BOOKS HAVE BEEN WRITTEN ABOUT IT;
WHY BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE, ETC!

IT'S ALMOST LIKE A SLAP IN THE FACE. FOR SOMEONE GOING THROUGH IT TO HEAR WORDS LIKE THOSE IN BLUE ABOVE!



I DON'T CARE IF GOD HAS ALL THE ANSWERS, SEES THE BIG PICTURE, KNOWS WHATS BEST, AND ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER, AND KEEP YOUR CHIN UP, AND MY GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR THEE, AND PRAY WITHOUT CEASING, AND TAKE NO THOUGHT OF TOMORROW, AND I WILL BE WITH YOU ALWAYS, AND I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU-----

BIG BREATH!!!!!!!!

PAIN, LOSS, TRAUMA, TRIALS:

STILL SUCK!

VERY CHRISTLIKE , YES? NO, BUT VERY HONEST!

BUT I HAVE ALWAYS FOUND IN MY OWN LIFE: ALL THE ABOVE TO BE TRUE. I DO BELIEVE IN HIS WORD TOTALLY, AND LOVE HIM AS MUCH AS I, HUMANLY CAN!
I CERTAINLY HAVE MORE QUESTIONS THAN ANSWERS AFTER ALMOST 30 YEARS OF ASKING HIM FOR A RELATIONSHIP.

IT'S A LIFELONG JOURNEY.
TIME ALWAYS REVEALS HIM TO BE RIGHT. EVEN THOUGH TO ME IT SUCKED.

I WILL CONTINUE MY RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM, BECAUSE OF THE PROFOUND CHANGE HE DID INSIDE ME SOME 29 PLUS TEARS AGO. THAT WORK WAS REAL TO ME! THAT'S WHY I BELIEVE. IT CHANGED JOHN....FOREVER.

TO QUOTE FROM A RECENT MOVIE:
"THE CLIMB IS TOUGH!"

"BUT THE VIEW IS MAGNIFICENT!"
(HANNAH MONTANA-I THINK)

I ALWAYS HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT, AND BESIDES, EVERYTHING I TRIED UP UNTIL THAT POINT HAD FAILED MISERABLY, TO FILL THE VOID IN MY HEART-SOUL!!!! OR TO MAKE ME HAPPIER!


YOU REAP WHAT YOU SEW! AN ILLUSTRATION IN FAITH


THE RESULT OF MY LABOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


IRISH CLOVER: A BEAUTIFUL PLANT WITH AWESOME COLORS AND THE MOST DELICATE PALE PURPLE FLOWER YOU HAVE EVER SEEN



THIS WAS LAST SUMMER: IT WAS WHAT I SOWED IN THE FALL. IN DIRT! WHEN I SOWED IT, I DIDN'T SEE IT- BUT I HAD FAITH I WOULD IN TIME. AND ONLY BECAUSE THE SEED PACKET HAD THIS PICTURE ON IT AND SAID IT WOULD COME UP IN LATE SPRING/ EARLY SUMMER.!

I HAD NO OTHER ASSURANCES...IT'S KINDA LIKE GOD'S WORD, SAYING OR GIVING US CERTAIN PROMISES. I SURE DON'T SEE THEM YET, BUT IF I SEW (BELIEVE, KEEP IT WATERED, DARE TO BELIEVE, IN SPITE OF WHAT I SEE????...I WONDER WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN?




YUK!
THIS IS THE SAME POT TAKEN A WEEK AGO. NOT LOOKING  AS  GOOD AS IT DID LAST SUMMER, HUH? DANG, I WONDER IF I SHOULD GIVE UP ON IT AND DUMP IT???

CIRCUMSTANCES, SEASONS, TIME HAD CHANGED AND THIS WAS THE RESULT!

BUT THEN:   I REMEMBERED.......
  
  IT LOOKED JUST LIKE THIS, THIS TIME THE YEAR BEFORE, WORSE THAN WHEN I FIRST SEWED THE SEED.  AT LEAST THE DIRT LOOKED GOOD! BUT, IN SPITE OF APPEARANCES, I ONCE AGAIN HAD FAITH IT WOULD RETURN, EVEN THOUGH IT DIDN'T LOOK TO PROMISING! BUT THIS TIME I HAD SEEN PREVIOUS RESULTS, SO IT WAS A LITTLE EASIER TO BELIEVE!!



WHAT I EXPECT: HOPE FOR: BELIEVE IN

AND SURE ENOUGH.....IT WILL COME BACK. HOW DO I KNOW? BECAUSE THIS IS THE 10TH YEAR, AND IT HAS COME BACK ALL 9 YEARS BEFORE IT....SO WHY SHOULD THIS SUMMER BE ANY DIFFERENT?

I'LL TAKE A PICTURE IN ABOUT 6 WEEKS! AND LET'S SEE WHAT HAPPENS.

WHAT HAVE I GOT TO LOSE?



I PLANTED THESE THIS SPRING!! I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHAT COMES UP.

WITH MY LUCK IT'LL BE TIGER WOODS AND HE'LL SLEEP WITH MY WIFE!




11 comments:

  1. Wow, thank you so much for the sweet comment. And thanks for the follow! I love your blog as well. And I'm following!
    With love and Blessings,
    Bleah Briann

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  2. Bleah-

    Thanks!!!!! To find someone so unashamed of God as you is awesome!! Thanks for the post!

    J

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  3. Just thought you should know John, that every time you comment, it's like a massive invisible hug coming through the screen. Hugs back to you buddy.

    God IS good. And God IS right. All the time.

    I would love to discuss the topic of God and our expectations and concepts of Him.

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  4. Jeannie,

    I need to add that to Ily's list of the nicest thing that's ever been said to me. I so often wonder if I make any sense or any difference at all in my little corner of God's Kingdom. To see this post reaffirms my Faith like you wouldn't believe! It is so easy when you are a new Christian, but sometimes the light dims--and we need each other to rekindle the Flame. I would love to openly discuss any and every aspect of Our God. Like I said--after all these years I seem to have more questions than answers--but in some areas there is an absolute UNSHAKABLE FAITH and BELIEF!!!

    Love and Hugs!!

    Thanks for such a beautiful compliment!!

    John

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  5. And Jeannie- (blinking back happy tears)......

    That's why I got back into Blogging again. To get back to the Christian and Faith based, Positive, side of things in this almost Hopeless Society we are in right now!

    But that can change. Also, if there are things that you would like to discuss in a more private arena, my E-mail is always open. My wife knows about this Blog as well as my Ministry- so there are no secrets there- although there is complete- COMPLETE, CONFIDENCE in any and everything that is shared in that manner.

    All you have to say is this parts between us--otherwise- most of what we discuss- if it's posted either on the Blog or in comments-

    -maybe it will resonate with others!

    However, whenever mi Lady! Let er rip!

    Well not THAT way! LOL

    THANK YOU- THANK YOU AGAIN FOR THE CONFIRMATION! OH HOW i NEEDED THAT RIGHT NOW---SEE HOW GOD IS WORKING ALREADY!

    J

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  6. I have always believed in God, but to this day, I don't know what He wants from me...

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  7. BD-

    I know exactly what you mean. I mean I haven't seen a burning bush since the lighter fell in my lap....sorry......

    One thing I do know and it's very simple sounding- I do know more than anything He wants only a RELATIONSHIP with us. Just to talk to Him like He's our Dad. He said to call Him Abba Father..almost literally "Daddy".

    And truthfully I feel I have grown closer to Him recently just talking conversationally! Sounds weird I know. And sometimes I wonder If I'm crazy as a loon...but it feels OK to me to do that.

    But I too struggle with the Obedience and the "His WILL" part most of the time!

    Very personal thing- Religion or Belief in God is isn't it?

    John

    Thanks for the candor my friend!

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  8. John, there is some very interesting comments coming up on your blog, and I am very much enjoying them.
    Somehow they are starting to make sense to me. You know that I sort of lost my way a bit after everything that has happened in my life, and I think that you came along at just the right time in my life.
    Somehow I just think things are just meant to be.
    Thank you & bless you!

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  9. ALICE,

    From what I have been reading, this only validates and confirms what I felt I was led to do. I don't have all the answers, but I do know I am to do certain things. This is one of them. I pray that we are all continually blessed by each other, as friends and Brothers and Sisters in Life!!!!

    Thank you for such awesome encouragement!

    VBH,

    J

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  10. wow wat a great post (:

    -cris

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Incredibly smart relies: