Monday, October 19, 2009

SPIRITUAL GIANT/FULL OF FAITH!

SPIRITUAL GIANT, FULL OF FAITH!
I HAVE BEEN a Christian for a long time now, and recently have been discussing with Scarlet & others about starting a Bible study/Inspirational, Non-Denominational BLOG, for ALL people to post POSITIVE Insights, Thoughts, Concerns, Searching Questions, or Prayer Requests. An Open Forum for us to lift each other up, with POSITIVE ENERGY, LOVE and ENCOURAGEMENT. A Blog for us all to come to and Drink deeply of the Life-Giving Water that flows from its ROCK!! One of the main lessons we Christians learn is not to be controlled by CIRCUMSTANCES! That is the supposed the OPPOSITE of the Faith we are supposed to have, because circumstances and emotional responses can fool you! God supposedly always has an out for you! When He closes a door He ALWAYS opens a window, and I have experienced this many many times over the years!

A Lesson I had learned and learned well! I was a Spiritual Giant in My Walk of Faith!! NOT!!

Within one week, due to circumstances, I went from the Mountain Top with God, into the Valley of the Shadow of Death, Full of Faith no less than 5 or 6 times!! NOTHING CAN TOUCH ME; I AM A CHILD OF THE KING!

Well, this child, GOT HIS A__ KICKED!! I mean busted up, & tore up from the floor up kicked. Defeated in fact! I think I musta done some of those Shrooms Plain ol Bob was talkin’ bout!

I had bitched and moaned that nobody from work had called to check on my status, or just to say Hi! Especially since they knew I was on short term Disability after my last Stent. So, I was feeling pretty good until I got a call from my Nurse Manager about FMLA (Family Medical Leave Act) and applying for some jobs on-line at the Main Hospital prior to my return. This is what I thought I wanted to hear! Oh, Great man of Faith that I am, it hit me just the opposite: What if, she knows something, What if, What if! My own little pity party pooped!

The Devil is the doubt master, the king of what if’s. So I immediately called my head honcho boss and friend, and have not heard a word from him after a guarantee that I was a valuable asset, and “a” job was waiting as soon as I was released.

I did not hear from Employee Health or Human Resources AFTER SEVERAL VOICE MAILS HAD BEEN LEFT, before the weekend, or my Disability person dude, who would not even give me his phone extension, so I could call and check on my claim status! "I DON'T GIVE THAT OUT." I told him that sucked and that that was unacceptable as I paid premiums for 5 years, and I have had other "LEAD CLAIMS SPECIALISTS" AND ALL OF THEM, had given me their extensions! I now have a new claims examiner, and received two letters demanding more info! Ruh Roh...note to self- don't piss of the hand that is paying you!

SO……FAITH- 0, DEVIL & CIRCUMSTANCES- 1.

Monday comes and still not a word from anyone. I fire off another round of phone calls and get everyone I need to talk to on the first call! FAITH SWAGGER RETURNS!!! PRAYER WORKS! DON’T MESS WITH THE MAN OF GOD. I knew better. I should not have let the previous circumstances bother me, as I know God is ALWAYS faithful and has been for 30 years!

OK, so on Monday, I am flying high as HR and Employee Health both said, “Boy, You sure have a lot of people that want to see you return to work and keep you at LMC! Yep—STRUT, STRUT! I’m a Gamecock- (is that a sucky mascot and name or what?) My Father came up from Florida to watch me play my first game at SC, and everyone yelled “GO COCKS!” My Dad said he got up to leave-(being a man) and looked to see where to go, because he thought all the men had to leave! Like Father like Son!

Anywhoo- ONLY THE CIRCUMSTANCES OF "WHAT I HAD HEARD" HAD CHANGED. I DID NOT KNOW IF THE NEW EXAMINER WAS ASSIGNED TO ME CUZ I PISSED OFF THE NO EXTENSION DUDE, OR BECAUSE THEY HAD TO REOPEN MY CASE AND PAY MORE MONEY OUT! BUT JUST BECAUSE OF THOSE WORDS,- from the Hospital- MY FAITH HAD INCREASED AGAIN- SOARED ACTUALLY, SINCE MY PRIDE HAD BEEN RE-AFFIRMED & EGO STROKED! another way Satan works- through Flattery! HOWEVER: THE CIRCUMSTANCES- what was actually happening REMAINED THE SAME ALL ALONG!!! ONLY THE WORDS WERE CHANGED!

Actually, nothing had changed, except me hearing what I wanted to hear. It was based not on FAITH- But on the Circumstances and words! So now, I’m a Spiritual Giant once again! Why, I never doubted at all!

B.S. !!!!!!

MONDAY- SPIRITUAL GIANT OF FAITH AWAKENS, AFTER GREAT WEEKEND OF FOOTBALL!
GOES TO MAILBOX! 2 LETTERS IN MAILBOX!

1. We regret to inform you, D___n !!!!!! More documentation is needed, blab la, blab la.
2.Second letter, We have requested this info and you have very little time to respond…….....

FAITH BASED AGAIN, HIT ROCK BOTTOM EMOTIONALLY, AND I USUALLY NEVER GET UPSET AT THESE THINGS- I JUST HANDLE THEM AS THEY COME AND MOVE ON, BUT NOT RECENTLY!

NOW I REMEMBER THAT THE HR PERSON, DID SAY THEY HAD RECEIVED A REQUEST FOR “EXTRA” DOCUMENTATION FROM MY DOCTOR, BUT IT HAD ALREADY BEEN SENT TO DISABILITY COMPANY. IT MUST HAVE CROSSED IN THE MAIL! I REALIZED, ALL WAS IN ORDER ALL ALONG! SO WHY DID I GET 2 LETTERS SAYING MY DISABILITY HAD BEEN STOPPED??? WHO'S LYING, IT'S A CONSPIRACY AGAINST ME! NOT AT ALL- IT'S MERELY CIRCUMSTANCES THAT POP UP AND HAVE TO BE FACED. WITHOUT FEAR OR WORRY.


SOME GREAT LEADER, TO GUIDE US ON A SPIRITUAL PILGRIMAGE, HUH?
Up, down, up, down, but all the more reason to, always HUMBLE YOURSELVES BEFORE YOUR LEADER AND SOURCE OF YOUR INDIVIDUAL FAITH, WHOEVER HE/ SHE /IT MAY BE!
THE BEGINNING AND, ULTIMATELY THE END, OF OUR JOURNEY ON EARTH WILL COME.

FILLED WITH WHAT WE'VE LEARNED,& BECOME. Circumstantial evidence is usually no help in court- where judgment is passed. So why do we react to circumstances we cannot control? Because we are in fact still human, and since Pride goes before the fall, be careful of thinking too highly of yourself! Think of others first and usually circumstances will turn in your favor!

I CALLED MY FAMILY PHYSICIAN'S OFFICE (BEING THE MAN OF FAITH THAT I AM- (cough cough), AND HAVE TO GO SEE HIM AGAIN BEFORE TIME, TO GET THESE FORMS FILLED OUT AS THE HAVE STOPPED MY DISABILITY UNTIL DOCUMENTATION IS RECEIVED. HUMAN RESOURCES AND EMPLOYEE HEALTH LED ME TO BELIEVE EVERYTHING HAD ALREADY BEEN DONE AND APPROVED, SO I'M GLAD I FOLLOWED MY GUT AND CALLED MY DOCTOR!! MY ORIGINAL EXAMINER SAID ALL I NEEDED WAS A NOTE ON A PRESCRIPTION PAD FROM MY DOCTOR, WHICH WAS FAXED, SINCE I HAD JUST SEEN HIM. WELL, NOT ACCORDING TO THESE TWO LETTERS!

SO WHO'S RIGHT, WHAT SET OF CIRCUMSTANCES IS TRUE? WHY AM I HAVING TO DO EVERYTHING THAT OTHER PEOPLE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE DOING? IF I TREATED PATIENTS' LIKE THIS THEY COULD POSSIBLY DIE! WHERE IS THE WORK ETHIC OF TODAY? WAH, WAH, WHA, WHA, WHA!

ANOTHER SET OF CIRCUMSTANCES TO BE DEALT WITH. BUT ISN'T THAT WHAT LIFE IS? ONE SET OF CIRCUMSTANCES, TESTS AND TRAILS AFTER ANOTHER? BOTH GOOD AND BAD? ISN'T HOW WE REACT AND HANDLE EACH NEW SET A MEASURE OF OUR GROWTH, OUR CHARACTER?

WOW- WHAT A VENT! FACTS AND FAITH RULE...CIRCUMSTANCES CAN CHANGE BY THE HOUR.

WONDER WHAT TOMORROW WILL BRING? IS THAT WHY WE ARE TO LIVE FOR TODAY ONLY, BECAUSE TOMORROW WILL BRING ENOUGH TROUBLE AND PROBLEMS OF IT'S OWN?

J